The B.E.A.T 4ME

Something I do like about this whole perimenopause situation is knowing that my periods are on their way out.

That part? I’m not mad at.

The process of them slowly dwindling away… the random symptoms… the way my body feels like it’s doing its own thing half the time? Not so great. But the end point? The fact that one day I just won’t have periods anymore?

Yeah. I’m looking forward to that.

I just wish that day would hurry up a little bit.

Because let’s be honest — I started my period when I was 10 years old. Ten. I’m now 45. That is 35 years of dealing with periods. Thirty. Five. Years.

I’ve done my time.

I don’t want any more children. I don’t need this monthly situation anymore. It can go. Respectfully… but firmly… it can go.

And yet — here we are.

Because something that has completely messed me up today is this: I finished my period less than two weeks ago… and today?

Another one.

Another. Period.

And this is the side of perimenopause that I do not like. The unpredictability. The not knowing. The “what do you mean we’re doing this again already?” energy.

I’ve experienced the missed periods too. Last year, I missed two. This year, I’ve already missed one. And you’d think that would feel like progress, right? Like, “okay, we’re getting somewhere.”

But even that comes with its own drama.

Because when that missed period finally does come back? The hormones don’t just quietly return like, “hey, we’re back.” No. Absolutely not.

It feels like they’ve been building up backstage, waiting for their moment, and then suddenly—

BOOM.

It’s a full-on party.

Not a calm, sit-down dinner party either. No.

This is a hardcore jungle rave.

Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom.

Emotions everywhere. Energy all over the place. Your body is like, “surprise!”

And you’re just there trying to keep up.

But today’s situation? A period again in less than two weeks?

I’m sorry — why?

Why is this happening?

Why does the body do this?

Why can’t it just… wind things down nicely and exit in an orderly fashion?

This is the part no one really prepares you for. Not just the symptoms, but the sheer unpredictability of it all. One minute things seem to be spacing out, the next your body is doubling down like it’s trying to get in extra shifts before retirement.

And it’s frustrating.

Because you’re ready to move on… but your body hasn’t quite got the memo yet.

So yes — I am grateful that my periods are on their way out.

But if they could just… go a bit faster, and with a little less chaos?

I wouldn’t complain.

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A little bit of what’s actually going on

This unpredictability you’re experiencing is a very normal part of perimenopause — even if it doesn’t feel normal when you’re living through it.

During this phase, your key hormones — oestrogen and progesterone — don’t decline in a smooth, steady way. Instead, they fluctuate. Up, down, sideways… sometimes all in the same month.

Ovulation (when your body releases an egg) also becomes irregular. Some months you ovulate, some months you don’t, and sometimes your body tries to but doesn’t quite get there.

And that matters because ovulation is what helps regulate your cycle.

So when ovulation becomes unpredictable:

• your cycle can get shorter (like a period coming again after two weeks)
• you might skip periods altogether
• or you might get unexpected or “in-between” bleeding

On top of that, oestrogen can spike and drop randomly, which can trigger your body to shed the uterine lining at unusual times — even if you’ve just had a period.

In simple terms? The system that used to run like clockwork is now running on vibes.

Your body is transitioning — it’s just not doing it in a straight line.And as frustrating as it is, this messy, unpredictable phase is often part of the journey towards periods eventually stopping altogether.